37 weeks, 6 days

yes, i am still here and yes, i am still pregnant. baby b's official due date is in 16 days and people's predictions on her actual due date have varied. i've heard, "you are SO small...she won't be here for WEEKS!" and "omg, she's coming tonight FOR SURE!" unfortunately, the latter has been incorrect and i'm hoping the first prediction is as well. as for my prediction, i go to bed every night hoping that she will come that night. unfortunately, every night thus far, has come and gone with no baby. so that mama & baby bond/mama's intuition...not so good.

i'll be honest i always thought women who complained about the last few weeks of pregnancy were wimpy. i now have a newfound respect for them. how the heck do people do it?? i have no idea. women are godsend, that's all i have to say. i have become miserable. i am uberly anxious (like to the point where i shake and feel like i'm going to jump out of my skin), i want to sleep all the time, i am so emotional i sometimes i will burst into a river of tears and my hips are so sore, it feels like they are falling out of their sockets. and that's just the beginning.

i visit with the doctor this afternoon and am PRAYING for some sort of relief and good news (like maybe, "hey, your baby is coming TONIGHT!) i know, it's a long shot and there have been an uncountable number of  women who have done this for centuries and there will be an uncountable number of women who will continue to willingly jump into this and endure this pain and suffering. but BLEH. it's official, one kid is enough!!! ;)