Roller Coaster

Life has been a roller coaster lately. 

Everything seemed to be going great.

We found out we were expecting baby #2 on Halloween.

We planned to move to a slightly bigger place around the corner.

We found out baby #2 was a BOY.

Everything was on a roll.

And then

BOOM.

Life happened.

Turns out that last year

when my husband was blessed with his new job

they were in the midst of changing his department over to another section of the company

and in the flurry of the change

his Federal taxes weren't withheld for the entire year when he transferred to the new section.

Ouch.

So come tax season

we found out we were owing thousands of dollars to the IRS

and soon.

Being the planners that we are M is

we disappointingly cancelled our move

rearranged our plans and priorities

and reshifted our focus.

We realized our 2 bedroom place was perfect for our growing family.

Our kids cosleep anyways. Why did we need the extra space at this time?

We figured yea the storage and space is limited in our place

but that's what being creative is all about.

We have to get creative.

And the garden I wanted?

Nothing has held me back from getting the garden I wanted in the past.

So why would moving change that in any way?

We want to live on the smaller rent so we can afford the great things for our kids.

We want to build memories and dreams

not have to ration everything just to make it every month.

Someone recently pointed out to us,

"What do you remember most about your childhood? 

Do you remember the house? Yes. But did it matter when you lived in the smaller house

or the bigger house? No. You remember the interactions.

The things and memories you created as a family. Focus on providing what they NEED. Not what you WANT. Foster your relationships. Splurge on fun outings and vacations. Don't feel like you need to keep up with the Joneses and put that pressure on you, your marriage and your family. 

To a child, they only need and want to be love and it doesn't require much for that. "

So life and it's upcoming plans changed a bit this past week.

Super stressful and so disappointing

but at the same time

so, so liberating and reassuring.

It makes no sense to dwell in the upsets

when there are so many blessing around us right now.

This is life.

Time to live it.