monday: 31 wk, 4 day appt.

so after the past eventful weekend, i called my ob/gyn first thing monday morning for a same day appt and thankfully they got me into an appt a few hours later.

it turns out all seems well...anxiety (which has haunted me off and on for years) is playing a huge factor in my odd body behaviors as i prepare mentally, emotionally, and physically for the coming of my little baby b. the doctor says the my blood work all looks fantastic though as we head into the last few weeks of pregnancy but that i definitely need to take it easy as i easily find myself (and he could immediately hear this in my talking) wheezing and hyperventilating without much exertion. the conclusion? i am hyperventilating and have anxiety. the cure? take it easy and carry a brown paper bag with me at all times.

sounds crazy i know, but oddly enough, helps so much. i've been trying to keep my anxiety and stress down...seems like everything gets me riled up these days and i find myself flying off the handle and breathing into my bag. funny in some ways, not so much in others. i also have found that i am constantly swollen. my feet/ankles ache and my very nice, slim fingers are like now more like pudgy sausages. and with the onset of the swelling i can no longer wear my wedding rings. this is the biggest upset to me as, coming up to our one-year anniversary, my wedding rings should be on my finger and not on a chain around my neck like a teeny bopper! bleh.

despite all this upon the massage of my belly, dr also said that the baby appears to have somersaulted into the breach position (although as of last night she must of flipped again as i felt her head and hiccups in my lower abdomen) but that she still has some wiggle room to turn and that it's not essential that she be in the delivery position just yet. i am also measuring at 34 cm. and while he won't confirm it or "officially" say anything just yet, this actually bumps me up 2-3 weeks for delivery. [ i admit, due to the fact that we were never really able to accurately pinpoint when we conceived and how big the baby actually was (due to her being in a ball during ultrasounds), i actually have been preparing myself for this for months now ] nonetheless, it is still quite overwhelming to think that a baby is full-term at 36/37 weeks and that women rarely ever make it to 40 weeks. if i am indeed 34 weeks, she is full-term in really less than a few weeks. so in the chance that she comes in late november/early-to-mid december we have decided to pack our bags for the hospital and get things ready to go.

as november pushes forward, seems like the days are going quickly and she is coming even quicker. i am definitely  excited though for the adventures ahead of us, the joy that parenting will bring, the family we will begin to raise and the growth our relationship is about to endure. what a wonderful way to close such an eventful year.