Sometimes I sit and wonder...how the hell did I get here? To this place, this point, this moment in my life. I can recall several (ok, MANY) periods in my life where I faced a crossroad and prayed that whatever way I decided to go was the right one. Each time felt more difficult then the time before and without fail, each time everything had happened for a reason. And so now, as I have moments in my busy schedule to spare, I wonder, how the hell did I get here?
Life has been a whirlwind. Sometimes more than others. I feel like every step I have taken has lead me to today and to the future. And as I continue, I am thankful for all the hardships and tears cried. I look back and laugh at the petty dramas, the ruthless gossip, the childish heartaches and realize that all I needed to complete and make me happy was to step up to the plate and really live; for no one else but myself.
Motherhood has been similar; a whirlwind indeed. I went from being an independent, self-sufficient woman, to a wife, to a mother in less than 18 months time. Every challenge I've ever had has shaped me to be the mother I am today and has given me the knowledge, patience and love to raise my daughter how I feel is right for her. And I hope one day she looks back on her years growing up and relishes in the love, delight, innocence and simplicity of the life we have given her. I hope one day she looks back and respects me as a mother, wife and woman. I hope one day she follows in my footsteps.
Life is truly an amazing journey. Each step teaches you something if you are diligent in your steps and humble enough to learn. And it's a choice, a lifestyle to be happy. And when I chose that, everything else perfectly fell into place. Life is truly amazing. Love is truly amazing. Motherhood is truly amazing.
I'm encouraged by your confidence. I wallow in my wonderings, if I love enough, if I'm too impatient or too short with him... but love indeed. I do love him..
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